Depression of Confession

What is depression really? Is there one concrete definition, or has the meaning loosened as our generation has continued it's downhill descent? To me, depression is simply my life. I'm not suicidal. I'm not a cutter. I don't hate the world. I don't dress completely in black. I'm just sad. I've been sad for what feels like my entire life, but that's not true. I was happy once and I can vaguely remember what it felt like, but I can't touch it. I can't get that happiness back, I don't know how. That's what depression is to me, knowing what happiness is, but never being able to touch it, to feel it.

Again From The Bottom of My Heart

Actually this is from the bottom of my heart......lil bit share, its ok right?

"I don't trust love, cause' you can make it someway if you want to and even you don't like it but I trust care cause' there's noway you can do it if you don't like it"

This kinda desperate but the word just showed up on my mind, and maybe from now on I don't trust love anymore, cause' the quote that I make is makes sense...all I need from now is not love, but care, someone who can take care of me when I'm happy or even when I'm feeling sad

Au revoir! nadia,