My IPS 2 Hastara

IM GONNA MISS THIS CLASS A LOT!

Lady Antebellum - Need You Now

Picture perfect memories scattered all around the floor
Reachin' for the phone 'cause I can't fight it anymore
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm all alone and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Another shot of whiskey can't stop looking at the door
Wishing you'd come sweeping in the way you did before
And I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

It's a quarter after one, I'm a little drunk and I need you now
Said I wouldn't call but I lost all control and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without
I just need you now

Guess I'd rather hurt than feel nothin' at all
It's a quarter after one I'm all alone and I need you now
And I said I wouldn't call but I'm a little drunk and I need you now
And I don't know how I can do without

Moving On is The Best Part

Ga kerasa ya, gue udah mulai move on dari semuanya......kalo dipikir-pikir emang buat apa gue stuck sm orang yang sebenernya ga ngebuat gue untung sama sekali malah ngerugiin gue apalagi dimasalah belajar sm sekolah, kalo ada dia gue pasti ga belajar deh buahahaha yaudahlah ya.....

Jadi, intinya gue berusaha move on dan Alhamdulillah berhasil ya walaupun kadang-kadangn masih keinget, yailah namanya jg cewe susah dong untuk masalah move on, yega? (cie) dan gue sekarang mau fokus dulu deh ke masalah UKK, masalahnya gue dapet surat pemanggilan orang tua nih..................deg-degannya udah kaya apaan tau, takut banget parah.....yaAllah semoga ga kenapa-kenapa ya, cuman sebatas dibilang harus lebih rajin lagi aja (amin) jangan yang macem-macem deh, ga kuat mental jiwa fisik gue buat dengernya juga -,-. okeoke buat janji yuk! yaaa satu aja dulu, fokusin sekolah ga usah mikir apa-apa dulu.......

HHHHHHHHHHH ga kerasa ya udah mau pisah aja sm XI IPS 2 hueeeee, sedih sih tapi emang harus pisah semuanya, wajib naik kelas semuanya XI IPS 2 (amin) I lobeee my XI IPS 2 :*

Yours, Right?

I don't understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn
 
It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's coming from my heart 
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think you're gonna change
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus there's so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn
 
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cause' the party ain't jumpin' like it used to 
Even though this might ruin you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
We know that it's through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn
 
Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same by myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-leven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return (let it burn)
 
I'm twisted cause' one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on 
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (ooooh)
I'm twisted cause' one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on 
On the other side I wanna break down and cry (yeah)

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return
Usher - Burn

Done and Done

Entah ini semuanya kesalahan gue full atau dia cuman buat cari alesan supaya bisa ngejauh dari gue.......gue gatau, tapi gue sadar ko kalo gue salah dan gue udah berusaha untuk minta maaf ya, tapi apa balesan lo? maafin gue aja belom.......yang ada lo malah tiba-tiba nge-unfollow gue dr twitter lo terus besoknya lo nge-remove gue jd follower lo....maksut gue, please banget dong mainan lo kaya gitu? gara-gara kesel sama masalah kecil (mungkin menurut lo masalah besar, ya I have no idea) terus lo jadi ngilang gt aja, gue sih ga masalah (serius) tapi maksut gue kan seengganya lo bisa bilang "iya nad gue maafin" DONE! lo mau ilang ke pedalaman suku dayak jg gue ga peduli, ini perasaan yang ngegantung.....dibilang gue salah oke iya emang gue salah, tapi lo juga ga bisa dibilang bener 100% kan?

After all we've been through, cukup selesai dengan kesalahan gue dalam penggunaan kata-kata? cukup selesai dalam artian "bener-bener selesai dan gue ga kenal lo lagi" oh ok fine. Tanpa ngomong apa-apa lo ilang gt aja, dimanaaaa sisi gentle lo sebagai cowo? dimanaa sifat lo yang lo bilang kalo lo berani, yang udah keliatan dari semua cerita lo yang lo pernah ceritain ke gue?. Gue cuman mau denger kata "iya gue maafin" itu doang ko, kenapa sih? susah banget...apa perlu gue ceramah depan muka lo terus gue bilang---Allah aja bisa memaafkan umatnya, masa lo yang seorang manusia biasa yang ga bisa apa-apa ga bisa maafin gue yang sama-sama umat-Nya sih?------NGGA KAAAAN? gue jg gamau, ngapain gue ceramah kaya gt....sadar sendirilah. Anyway, gue nulis blog gini bukan maksut gue buat nyidir lo atau ngejelek-jelekin lo (sumpah) tapi gue cuman pengen lo tau, kalo gue merasa bersalah dan gue cuman pengen bilang "Firman Zainal Tamin, thanks for everything and I'm sorry" that's all, gue tau gue frontal sampe gue tulis nama lo disini, tapi itu biar lo tau maksut gue nulis blog ini apa.

After

I cried today... not because I miss you... or even wanted you... but because I realized I'm gonna be all right without you.