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Permulaan

Assalamualaikum... Udah lama ya ga ngeblog lagi. Banyak banget hal-hal yang bisa gue ceritain disini, tapi karena faktor privacy didunia maya dan disertai kejelasan identitas gue diblog ini yang menyebabkan gue ga bisa seblak-blakan itu, padahal konsep blog sendiri itu buat nyeritain semuanya kan ya ckck. Hal-hal yang selama ini terjadi semuanya menyangkut kisah cinta gue yang kalo gue bikin skripnya bakalan di beli sama pihak ftv ini terlalu panjang banget buat gue ceritain ulang dipost ini. Intinya adalah: Nadmol balikan sama Firman. Nadmol nonton one day sama sahabat-sahabanya. Nadmol selingkuh sama sahabatnya. Nadmol putus sama Firman. Nadmol galau. Nadmol jadian sama sahabatnya. Firman ngamuk. Nadmol galau. Nadmol putus sama sahabatnya. Nadmol galau. Nadmol tetep sahabatan sama sahabatnya walaupun itu aneh. Nadmol labil. Sahabatnya labil. Sahabatnya deketin orang lain. Nadmolnya cemburu. Nadmol mau ninggalin sahabatnya tapi ga bisa. Firman kontak lagi. Nadmol ladenin. Deket lagi sama Firman. Firman ngajak balikan. Nadmol php. Mulai ga jelas sama sahabatnya. Firman tetep nunggu Nadmol. Nadmol galau. Nadmol sama sahabatnya berantem terus. Nadmol cape. Sahabatnya nadmol cape. Firman juga cape. Sahabatnya pergi. Nadmol galau. Nadmol sadar. Firman pergi. Nadmol makin sadar. Sabahabatnya udah deket lagi sama orang baru. Nadmol galau dan makin sadar. Nadmol mulai move on walau susah. Nadmol mati rasa. Nadmol happy. Nadmol move on beneran. Nadmol sadar bahwa semua ini terjadi hanya karena kebegoan gue sendiri yang gue jalanin selama 5 bulan kebelakang. Andai gue punya mesin waktu... Tapi sayangnya there's no such thing lah ya, gpp deh gue sekarang cuman bisa bilang semua yang kejadian itu adalah pelajaran hidup buat gue, sebenernya simple aja masalah gue cuman ada beberapa hal yang gue ga tulis diatas dan itu yang memberatkan gue dan sayangnya masalah gue ga sesimple itu. Gue sendiri juga berharap bisa simple kok, tapi sayang ga segampang itu. Yang gue tau adalah sekarang gue kehilangan sahabat gue, gue cuman bisa berharap semoga sahabat gue baik-baik aja kedepannya makin happy dan sebagainya. Sahabat mungkin come and go, tapi memori ga come and go. I hope you realize that. Thank you for everything, especially for the lesson of life you taught me. Mari kita tutup buku, buka lagi buku yang baru dan mulai lagi dari awal sebagai permulaan yang baik. Bismillah. *sahabat ga disebutkan namanya karena faktor privacy seseorang.

Terlalu Lama, 28-08-2013

Sudah lama ku menanti dirimu
Tahu tahu sampai kapankah
Sudah lama kita bersama-sama
Tapi segini sajakah
Entah sampai kapan ooo
Entah sampai kapan

Hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta, nyatakan cinta
Aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama, terlalu lama

Sadarkah kau, ku adalah wanita
Aku tak mungkin memulai
Sadarkah kau, kau menggantung diriku
Aku tak mau menunggu

(hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta, nyatakan cinta)
aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama, terlalu lama

College

This is the second rejection of college, well the second is I'm on the waiting list but still I didn't get it. I don't know what to do actually, little bit empty soul ryt now. I thought I can got in, which is the college I always dreaming of. I feel stupid but what the heck, there's nothing I can do either. I want to cry, I do. But it will waste my tears so why I have to bother it. Maybe its because the rejection has been twice and the second one feels nothing (fyi the first time I knew that I didn't get into the college that I want to be, I cried like... hell) What the hell am I going to do? And the answer is "I don't know yet".

THE TIME!

OMG, I can't believe it the year has come, the year where I have to find my next destination for my future or we can called it the "university". Honestly I still can't decide which university I would go, for some reason I decide to apply in Prasetiya Mulya Business School because I feel my passion is in business thing but at some point to I really like to talk, meet new people even though I really bad for making a good impression for the first time, but I can guarantee for the second or even the third time I can make a really good impression.
So, this 30 January I have to do these test for university, hope I'll be fine to do it and trust that everything is gonna be alright (amin)

My Biography

After I watched "How I Met Your Mother" and I saw Ted making some note and wrote -Dear future me,- I kinda inspired for doing exactly what Ted did. You see, in that note we can write a lot of things! Maybe like a experience, a warn, a reminder and put it into a small box with the tittle "My Future Biography" then you read it all when you're old, of course you'll smiling when you read it and say "I was young, and fun" and telling to my future husband how I role when I was young, sitting on the chair with a cup of tea. AAAH! that's my goal for being a happy, wealth (HAHAHA), health and calm retirement. Hmmmm, happy life

Dear Future Me.....

Hello, I'm from the past. I'd like to know what you're doin' right know especially when you read this post, I bet you're smiling.
I have some question for the future me, things get change right? well, the future me have to changes too!
1. Do you lose some... wait, I mean is A LOT of weight?
2. Do you still single? or maybe... married?!
3. Do you get what you really want?
4. Do you still in Indonesia?
5. Count it all! How many time a guy break you heart?
6. Do you remember what "galau" means?
7. The last but not least, WHO ARE YOU RIGHT NOW? Do you proud of it?

Sincerely,
Past Nadia Maulida