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Assalamualaikum... Udah lama ya ga ngeblog lagi. Banyak banget hal-hal yang bisa gue ceritain disini, tapi karena faktor privacy didunia maya dan disertai kejelasan identitas gue diblog ini yang menyebabkan gue ga bisa seblak-blakan itu, padahal konsep blog sendiri itu buat nyeritain semuanya kan ya ckck. Hal-hal yang selama ini terjadi semuanya menyangkut kisah cinta gue yang kalo gue bikin skripnya bakalan di beli sama pihak ftv ini terlalu panjang banget buat gue ceritain ulang dipost ini. Intinya adalah: Nadmol balikan sama Firman. Nadmol nonton one day sama sahabat-sahabanya. Nadmol selingkuh sama sahabatnya. Nadmol putus sama Firman. Nadmol galau. Nadmol jadian sama sahabatnya. Firman ngamuk. Nadmol galau. Nadmol putus sama sahabatnya. Nadmol galau. Nadmol tetep sahabatan sama sahabatnya walaupun itu aneh. Nadmol labil. Sahabatnya labil. Sahabatnya deketin orang lain. Nadmolnya cemburu. Nadmol mau ninggalin sahabatnya tapi ga bisa. Firman kontak lagi. Nadmol ladenin. Deket lagi sama Firman. Firman ngajak balikan. Nadmol php. Mulai ga jelas sama sahabatnya. Firman tetep nunggu Nadmol. Nadmol galau. Nadmol sama sahabatnya berantem terus. Nadmol cape. Sahabatnya nadmol cape. Firman juga cape. Sahabatnya pergi. Nadmol galau. Nadmol sadar. Firman pergi. Nadmol makin sadar. Sabahabatnya udah deket lagi sama orang baru. Nadmol galau dan makin sadar. Nadmol mulai move on walau susah. Nadmol mati rasa. Nadmol happy. Nadmol move on beneran. Nadmol sadar bahwa semua ini terjadi hanya karena kebegoan gue sendiri yang gue jalanin selama 5 bulan kebelakang. Andai gue punya mesin waktu... Tapi sayangnya there's no such thing lah ya, gpp deh gue sekarang cuman bisa bilang semua yang kejadian itu adalah pelajaran hidup buat gue, sebenernya simple aja masalah gue cuman ada beberapa hal yang gue ga tulis diatas dan itu yang memberatkan gue dan sayangnya masalah gue ga sesimple itu. Gue sendiri juga berharap bisa simple kok, tapi sayang ga segampang itu. Yang gue tau adalah sekarang gue kehilangan sahabat gue, gue cuman bisa berharap semoga sahabat gue baik-baik aja kedepannya makin happy dan sebagainya. Sahabat mungkin come and go, tapi memori ga come and go. I hope you realize that. Thank you for everything, especially for the lesson of life you taught me. Mari kita tutup buku, buka lagi buku yang baru dan mulai lagi dari awal sebagai permulaan yang baik. Bismillah. *sahabat ga disebutkan namanya karena faktor privacy seseorang.

Terlalu Lama, 28-08-2013

Sudah lama ku menanti dirimu
Tahu tahu sampai kapankah
Sudah lama kita bersama-sama
Tapi segini sajakah
Entah sampai kapan ooo
Entah sampai kapan

Hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta, nyatakan cinta
Aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama, terlalu lama

Sadarkah kau, ku adalah wanita
Aku tak mungkin memulai
Sadarkah kau, kau menggantung diriku
Aku tak mau menunggu

(hari ini ku akan menyatakan cinta, nyatakan cinta)
aku tak mau menunggu terlalu lama, terlalu lama

College

This is the second rejection of college, well the second is I'm on the waiting list but still I didn't get it. I don't know what to do actually, little bit empty soul ryt now. I thought I can got in, which is the college I always dreaming of. I feel stupid but what the heck, there's nothing I can do either. I want to cry, I do. But it will waste my tears so why I have to bother it. Maybe its because the rejection has been twice and the second one feels nothing (fyi the first time I knew that I didn't get into the college that I want to be, I cried like... hell) What the hell am I going to do? And the answer is "I don't know yet".

THE TIME!

OMG, I can't believe it the year has come, the year where I have to find my next destination for my future or we can called it the "university". Honestly I still can't decide which university I would go, for some reason I decide to apply in Prasetiya Mulya Business School because I feel my passion is in business thing but at some point to I really like to talk, meet new people even though I really bad for making a good impression for the first time, but I can guarantee for the second or even the third time I can make a really good impression.
So, this 30 January I have to do these test for university, hope I'll be fine to do it and trust that everything is gonna be alright (amin)

My Biography

After I watched "How I Met Your Mother" and I saw Ted making some note and wrote -Dear future me,- I kinda inspired for doing exactly what Ted did. You see, in that note we can write a lot of things! Maybe like a experience, a warn, a reminder and put it into a small box with the tittle "My Future Biography" then you read it all when you're old, of course you'll smiling when you read it and say "I was young, and fun" and telling to my future husband how I role when I was young, sitting on the chair with a cup of tea. AAAH! that's my goal for being a happy, wealth (HAHAHA), health and calm retirement. Hmmmm, happy life

Dear Future Me.....

Hello, I'm from the past. I'd like to know what you're doin' right know especially when you read this post, I bet you're smiling.
I have some question for the future me, things get change right? well, the future me have to changes too!
1. Do you lose some... wait, I mean is A LOT of weight?
2. Do you still single? or maybe... married?!
3. Do you get what you really want?
4. Do you still in Indonesia?
5. Count it all! How many time a guy break you heart?
6. Do you remember what "galau" means?
7. The last but not least, WHO ARE YOU RIGHT NOW? Do you proud of it?

Sincerely,
Past Nadia Maulida

Fact.

Today, I've learned something. I thought I was the loneliness girl in the world, then I was wrong.

On the way to College

Bismillah..
Mulai tanggal 20 September 2010, angkatan Hastara harus udah serius buat ngadepin UAN. Ga kerasa banget ya? perasaan kaya baru kemaren gue ikut MOS, TO, Bintama. Well, rencana gue buat kedepannya itu: UI, UGM, ITB (AMINNNNN) yaaaah biarpun sejujurnya gue ga terlalu berharap dengan universitas negeri, kalo swastanya gue mau bangeeeeeeeeeeet nget nget di Prasetya Mulya. Yah, pilihan unversitas udah sekarang tingga pilihan Fakultas-jurusannya, masalahnya gue jg gatau lagi mau ambil jurusan apa selain bisnis management, di otak gue cuman ada bisnis, bisnis & BISNIS!. Kemaren gue abis liat jurusan - jurusan di websitenya UI sih......terus gue berminat di Kriminatologi HAHAHA tapi jujur kayaknya seru aja di jurusan itu, kaya FBI-FBI versi Indoneseia kan? yaaaah intinya itu lah, dan permasalahan utama dari semuanya itu adalah:
SIMAK UI ------------> 27 FEBRUARI 2011!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Jujur gue amat sangat SHOCK! kenapa bisa secepet itu coba? gilaaaaa taun ini aja simaknya bulan maretan gt apa kapaaan gt, yang pasti ga secepet sekarang kannnn??
Nah, untuk menyambut gembira tanggal itu....gue udah nyiapin diri dengan les yang FULL 1 MINGGU PENUH!
SSC: Senin & Rabu, TBI: Selasa, Kamis & Jumat, BTA: Jumat & Sabtu.
Coba ditengok jadwal gue untuk setaun kedepan. Ada yang bisa menemukan hari apakah gue bisa main? minggu? istirahat kaliiiii, lo kata gue wonder woman apa? palingan sabtu abis BTA, tapi yah please....udah muak duluan otak gue buat dibawa jalan. Yah, skg semuanya dibawa asik dulu deh, kan kalo gue susah - susah sekarang tapi seneng buat nantinya kaaan? (AMIN)

Balikpapan

Akhirnya gue sampe di Balikpapan, awalnya sih asik-asik aja.....makin kesini nyokap makin malesin.
Gue sih ga bisa cerita banyak, intinya this trip is kinda sucks :middlefinger:

XI IPS 2 2009-2010

They are my everthing <3

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What I Want To - Do If I Have a Lover (Duet)

Everything feels alright, only with you, my boo
(Girls)
If I have a boy friend,
there'll be so many things I want to do
I've dreamt I have a boy friend like that
The first, kissing him in the street
The second, catching the early train for Chooncheon with him
The third, going on a picnic with him
The fourth, the piggy back ride
The fifth, couple-ring is basic to our love
Boo boo boo It'll be really sweet

The thought of it makes my heart flutter
I'll try to do every one a day with you
I'm so happy to be with you
I'm so happy we both are together
You're a real treasure to me, baby baby baby baby baby boo
(Boys)
If I have a girl friend,
there'll be so many things I also want to do
I've always envied another's girl friend
The sixth, I'll go to late night movies with you
The seventh, I'll go to amusement parks with you
The eighth, I'll hold a surprise event for you
Boo boo boo I'll be really happy because of you

The thought of it makes my heart flutter
I'll try to do every one a day with you
I'm so happy to be with you
I'm so happy we both are together
You're a real treasure to me, baby baby baby baby baby boo

I've been alone on my birthday
I've had nothing do on the weekend
But I'm eagerly looking forward to such named days

I'm so happy to be with you, I'm so happy we both are together
Wherever we are, or whatever we do
I really want us to be one

Everyday what I really try to do with you,
is to tell you, "I love you"
What I really want to hear from you, is such a word, "I love you"
Thank you for coming to me
I'm so happy to be with you
You are my only love, baby baby baby baby baby boo
Baby baby baby (my one and only love) baby boo

The Meaning of Friendship

I'm sorry, but I can't promise the last one :'(

Galau Itu Baik!

Setelah pengasingan diri gue dengan para lelaki-lelaki, akhirnya emang ga jauh-jauh pilihan gue adalah kembali yang ke dahulu kala (ada yang mengerti?).
Gue tau ko gue emang bego, tapi apa coba yang bisa gue lakuin? nothin', kalo adapun paling berbagai macam advice dtg ke gue dan gue pun gatau mesti ikutin yang mana, itulah namanya galau. Gue udah coba lupain, 4 taun men gue survive dari orang yang gue pikir ga memungkinkan untuk ada timbal baliknya ke gue, sampe akhirnya gue coba pindah ke oranglain yang justru malah ngebuat gue makin down dan yaaaaa bisa dibiliang agak gila sedikit (yg dkt sm gue taulah seberapa galaunya gue waktu itu).
Gue coba lupa, akhirnya lupa. Tapi bukannya malah ketemu yang baru dan yang better dari semuanya malah gue balik lagi ke yang dulu, yaitu penantian gue selama 4 taun berturut-turut, tapi kalo gue totalin sampe sekarang itu bisa sampe 5-6 taun aja loh! Kurang setia apa coba gue?. Siapa yang mau bilang kalo gue itu goblok? Gue terima ko. Emang itu faktanya, gue cukup goblok nungguin orang yang ga ada pastinya sampe sekarang.
Kenapa gue ga coba move on atau yang kita sebut bahasa kasarnya adalah cari pelarian yang baru? Lo tanya gue ampe 18027397123801x juga jawaban gue cuman 1: "GATAU".
Gue memang bodoh dalam hal ini, amat sangat tidak expert.

SKYAVENUE'10! & Celana Aladinku

Project terakhir dari angkatan Hasta Praja Sanggakara, HASTARA!
ditanggal 7 agustus nanti pasti seru mampus gt deh, ga kebayang (super excited). Btw, niat gue buat SkyAve nanti kan mau pake baju panitia+celana aladin kan ya....cuman dikarenakan ukuran paha gue yang cukup seperti ayam boiler jadi gue agak mau mengundurkan diri buat pake celana aladin, tapi gue masih mau nyoba cari lagi ah pantang nyerah bok. Waktu itu gue pernah pajang di twitter tentang ukuran celana aladin sebesar paha anak gajah adanya dimana gt kan, ko pd ketawa ya? gue merasa sedih sebenernya (mellow) hhhhh mau dibawa kemanaaa pahaku iniii~. Ayo! gue butuh informasi tentang ini nih! "di toko manakah yang menjual celana aladin yang berukuran sebesar anak gajah?" jika anda tau, tolong hubungi saya. ASAP!

Robotic, Electronic, Superpanic

SUPER SURAM KARTUL GUE, tanggal 31 harus udah selesai bab 1. Sedangkan gue belom tau mau ngebahas tentang apa buat kartul gue nantinya, gue gatau lagi mesti apa kabarnya dunia....tolong bantu saya sebelom saya mati berdiri hanya sebuah kartul.

Udah Lama Ga Nge-post Jadinya Ga Jelas

Hello! udah lama ga nge-post ya, orang sibuk susah sih :ngakak:
oke, gue mau cerita sedikit tentang keadaan gue pasca postingan yg kemaren-kemaren, which is about my love life. Well, keadaan saya sampai saat ini makin membaik dan terus membaik loooh! yah even gue belom dapet pengganti kaya lo gt, ya gue sih tetep stay cool aja, namanya juga orang setia yega? haha dibilang setia juga untuk saat ini udah ngga, meen the show must go on! enough is enough. Oh, dan besok gue mau berangkat ke lombok!!! yeaaay, gue mesti have fun disanaaaa, mau main water sport yang banyak, gaaaah' I can't wait for tomorrow.

What the oracle

Yesterday, my friend who can foresee said about something about him, through a prophecy that she sees. she said "I still can't get over him". In fact, I still see his twitter's timeline, and I still hope he will come back to me and yea I can't argue about that. My friend told me that he has a huge ego, so he had to change his attitude and change his mind about me, the bad one (cause' what I heard about is that 2 his friends try to make me feel and look bad in front of him), well some Indonesian people called it "Kambing Hitam". And finally "soon" he try to being close with another woman and that woman was not interested!!!! and he's broken heart and regret it (I guess) <--- that's what my friend said and I have nothing to do with it :D
What my friend said is true. And I can't say anything, but if someone asked me if I would accept him again if he comes back to me, and my answer is yes. Pathetic ryt?

My IPS 2 Hastara

IM GONNA MISS THIS CLASS A LOT!